Focusing

Work is one of those things that must be done in order to get some place or to move forward. The problem for me is that I don't find motivation until I'm approaching the end of some specified time table.(ie. a due date) I find that my procrastination is both my greatest strength and weakness. When there is an external stress I achieve more in less time and essentially my mind is more efficient. Now what my goal is to combine my focusing power with a weaker tendency of mine planning. I can find the effort to do work unless I'm pushed. Over the next few weeks my goal will be to put a deadline on all of my work, but two days earlier than the provided date. This is an old trick one of my writing professors mentioned. The thought seems to be good, because for me and like most other people we can't seem to utilize time without out certain deadlines. I liken it to setting your watch or car time to 5mins earlier than is the reality, because your always 5min early. The problem is that you can't really ever trick yourself unless your drunk or you ask someone else to do it, but you give them specific details on how to alter the clocks around you. Like having them do it a few weeks from the time the idea spawned so this way you will truly be tricked. For me if I say something like that though, I remember what I ask of people and then I'm expecting it and then I can't be tricked. To evade this problem all together I will attempt to create time for specific things and use this funny thing called a schedule, but not a written one just a focus of thought on specific times so that when I may come to those times I will know what has to be done. This is a conscious choice and to do so is to conform to all the worlds bs, because with these boundaries comes inadequacies. In order to have order we need structure and time tables, but there lies the contradiction. We both require and despise time, because without it we don't achieve work and with it we feel limited. So I will use the time honored system and see how far it gets me. My goal is to become a more focused person and in doing so I will be a more efficient homo sapien.