End to a means

Day one of my very first, very exciting, very new blog. For me this is interesting, because normally I don't share thoughts with anyone, but phil, sarah, and other immediate family. So the fact that I'm expressing myself in this manor creates a sense of positive change within me. I don't have a good reason for even deciding to do this other than my best man phil. He motivates me to change in a good way. I need change in my life especially now, because I'm at a point in my life when things are just going and the motions seem monotonous. I live at home, I learn myself at sunyit, I work myself to the bone at a distribution center, and this is supposed to be the best time of my life. What am I missing? It must be something rather important, if I'm wasting my time talking to a wall. School is stagnating for me because it's only going to get me a general studies degree. Woweee that gets me like a management position at like mcD's. The whole thing is a wash. The Suny system is bullshit and it doesn't always work for the students it operates more like a business. Give me your money and I'll give you your green card. We'll in my perspective school shouldn't be something we slave over and agonize about. It should be a place to expand thought and instill peace of mind. In my experience if you transfer for school to school you get fucked so just don't do it unless you need to. My situation is simple but shitty. I graduated from hccc w/ an gen stud major. Then I moved to buffalo state and studied biology, which sucked but it's where I found my place (business) and finally I moved back to attend sunyit. All of these colleges have affiliation with the suny system +simple OK- NOT, because sunyit denied like 60+ credits and all were well above C+ so what the F is that. Over the ensueing weeks I waged war and won sort of. I moved from a bus. major to a gen. studies major and i'm back at square one again. Well isn't that just a cluster FK. Rather than waste tons of money on another year I just took a summer course and a course overload of a semester and now I graduate on time and without additional expense, but I don't get what I want. So in order to feel any satisfaction about my life path at current I must accept everything that I can't change and work on what is relevant. At the moment that is a 15 pg paper on technological utopia/distopia. OK well that's fun. No but seriously it might actually be ok, because my topic is nanotech and that's better than basket weaving. This all might be rubbish, but it's what I'm currently thinking and I think this is how blogs go. You write what you want at a given moment to relieve yourself of it. So here I am take it or leave it. Josh M Edwards.